Friday, September 5, 2008

I could swim 500 meters and I will swim 500 more....

Me, My personal Lifeguard and chasecar, and then there is my friend!
Here begins the dragging out of the water....
and up the hill....
to meet Aaron.....
and there he goes.....Go Aaron GO!!


One year ago, I signed on board with a few friends to compete in a Triathlon, relay style, Labor Day Weekend of 2008. I was to do the swim portion, Aaron would bike 20K, and Ann would then run 5K. Of course back then, I got many warnings that one could DIE swimming in a triathlon. Little did the giver of those warnings know, but that just makes me want to do it more. Tell me I cannot do something and I will prove I can!


So I began the road of swim lessons and many hours spent at the Y trying to make sure I could actually swim 500 meters straight. Well the weekend arrived last week and my team, complete with cheerleaders (Yay Adam, Leann, Mom, Laurie and Larry), and Jen's team showed up at the triathlon, ready to go. Then I saw the lake, and the buoys, and how far away they were from each other. Then the announcer told us where I had to swim around, thank GOD is wasn't ALL the buoys I saw out there!! I wasn't saying much. I looked pretty calm. Aaron, Ann, Jen, and all the rest asked how I was doing. My standard answer was "I'm good!" However, my internal answer was...^%@!@&&*@&%&. The more I talk about how nervous I am, the worse it gets. So it is much better for me to put my game face on than be honest. Now that it is over....I was very nervous. But in reality, I was more nervous about making it up the hill after swimming than I was about the swim. I mean come on...it is sooo NOT FAIR to make people get out of the water and run up a hill on rubber legs in their swimsuits. But who says that Triathlons were meant to be fair!


In the end, I swam the distance, with my own personal lifeguard puttering along next to me. He says he is the chase car in a marathon. His job was to swim with the last person in the water. So I guess you now know how quickly I swam...not quick! My first 10 minutes were rough. But that is how it always is...I wanted to quit to say the least. But how does one quit in a Lake. At the pool, you grab a wall and hang on. In a lake your choices are limited. Turn around, swim on, or get hauled out. Getting hauled out was not an option for me because the ONLY way I would allow that was if I was dead...and frankly I wasn't up for dying. Turning around was not an option either because when I wanted to quit it was equally far to turn around and swim back as it was to keep going and finish. Not to mention the fear of failure and the shame that would go along with it.

As I approached the finish, I see a man in the water just beyond the finish line. I hear cheering...yes I have fans :-) Then I notice the man in the water is a friend of mine who had already finished his swim...He came back for me. TO cheer me in, and to conquer the hill with me. I was not alone. Talk about no man being left behind. I felt very very loved. Together we made it up the hill and I was able to get my electronic chip that keeps track of our times passed off to Aaron so he could go off on the bike. Then and only then, was I finally able to breathe...and begin to wonder will I even recognize Aaron when he comes in on the bike. What was he wearing? What color is his helmet? Is he wearing sun glasses or not? How will I know to cheer like crazy when he comes in? SO I went and changed then stood near his siblings. Because I was for SURE that they of all people would recognize him...and when they cheered, I would cheer.

He did great, despite a mechanical failure on the bike. His seat dropped when he sat on it, so he rode a bike that was not fitted right for him and with a seat that was wobbling. Despite all that, he still spent less time on the bike than Virg. Yes it is a small victory and probably the only competitive victory for our team of the day, but a victory nonetheless.

He came in, and yes I recognized him...and Ann took off to finish strong on the running.

All in all, we decided we wanted to do it again next year, but the longer version. So next year, I add 500 meters on and will swim a total of 1000 meters. I am so glad they want me back on their team again:-)

And on a side note: I am beginning to see a theme in my fears. My fears have nothing to do with the event itself, but with what I might look like doing the event(valid-see photos), or how others might perceive it(not valid, they want me back), or the not being able to do it(not valid, I did it!).
Click the link to see our results if you care to see them. :-)

http://www.3disciplines.com/index2.php?option=com_docman&task=doc_view&gid=843&Itemid=60





Friday, April 11, 2008

Wave of Mercy

I am learning this Blogger thing one step at a time. I was trying to put the Wave of Mercy Link in my sidebar and it ended up in a post. So, here I am trying to explain it.

Jenny is my Friend. I credit her (ok God through her) and 2 others that had a HUGE role in my salvation. Needless to say, she is an amazing woman who just loves Jesus and wants to be used by Him.

So here is the short story. She is going away. Far, Far, much farther than I would like my friend to go, away. For 3 months!! What will I do without her for 3 months, but that is another story. Anyway, she will be on the Africa Mercy, a big floating hospital off the coast of Africa providing medical care to people in need.

How cool is that!!! If you like world mission stuff and want to support Jen, click the links, it will tell you what to do and how to do it. If you would rather get something for your money, there is a Karaoke fundraiser being planned in the Metro Detroit area for May 4th and we are planning one also in the Grand Rapids area a little later in May.

So keep checking for those details :-) They should be a good time for all!!

Wave of Mercy








Thursday, April 10, 2008

The first one...

Today I was posting a comment on another person's blog and realized I had gone beyond a comment. I was writing my story out of where I am today, in hopes of encouraging others. I thought...Sheesh, I should do my own blog. Later (without knowing about my earlier thoughts) a friend said, Kim...You should blog your story. Harumph.

My blog is predominantly going to be about my weight loss journey. What comes up for me? What stops me? Why do I freeze in the midst of progress? I know! I know! That sounds like the pits to read. So I will be sure to include my successes and joys as well. The times when I "Won" that minute, then that hour, until I have "won" a whole day and then a whole week...until finally I have won the battle.

My "issue" with doing a blog is if I do it consistently and I give it 100%...then people will see me on my not so good days. They will know the dreams I have of fried chicken and mashed potatoes and gravy and the nightmares I have about vegetables and salad and eating them for the rest of my life!!! They will know my greatest fears and weaknesses. OK forget "they". "You" might not like what you see some days. Which translates into my crazy brain as You might not like me. Vulnerable. Scary. I hesitate. Then I remember who it is I want to be to the world. An Inspiration. How can I be an inspiration if I am not willing to take a risk? So here it is people. Read on if you dare.

So you might be asking...what is with the title of this Blog. Well, it came from a song I love that sums up this journey through life. Right now I am on a Journey of Weight Loss. With that, comes a journey of self reflection. Figuring out who I am to myself, to others and ultimately to God, My Father. As I come to know me and become more confident of who God calls me (more about that later) I cannot help but end up in a place of Beauty and Grace. So here are the song lyrics that inspired my title and that encourages me daily of where I am headed and it is not just to skinny!

On the Road to Beautiful by Charlie Hall

I crumble at Your kiss and grace
I'm a weakling in the dust
Teach me how to cling to You
With all my life and all my love

Father come to me, hold me up
'cause I can barely stand
My strength is gone
and my breath is shot,
I can't reach out my hands

But my heart is set on a pilgrimage
to heaven's own bright King
So in faltering or victory
I will always sing

And on the road to beautiful
My seasons always change
But my life is spent on loving You
To know You in Your power and pain

You're my portion in this life
You're my strength now in my fight
And to You I pledge my heart
In the pain and in the dark
I'll love You

I'll love You, I'll love You
I'll love You...